A rare but stupid truth

The absolute last thing I want to do today is be surrounded by people. I would very much like to be antisocial and alone and do terrible things to the skin on my arms, but instead I get to go feel shitty about myself in public. I can’t even stand being at lunch at school anymore, I’m a fucking recluse. So yeah, to anyone who sees me today, tomorrow, next week… I’m depressed and hate everything about me, and I couldn’t blame you if you did too. :/